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Points make a game but moments make a story of living encounters. A living encounter can reach a point, but a point can't reach a living encounter. Points can be made and measured therefore don't require trust and love which can't be measured or made, only entered. A moment is the still door into life's movement.
We so often say the wrong thing because we have this compulsion to speak when simply loving is needed. True value is realized not so much through speaking but in loving. Right or timely words do register in the heart but are most powerfully registered when love leads. Otherwise what is said is often received as more internal noise to be tuned out or is tuned out without even intentionally doing so. I call this shutting down even when words are present. Misinterpretation is intense at this point causing much unnecessary anxiety and conflict. Virtually no healing is possible though the opportunity was present. How often value is misplaced because silence is feared rather than used to remove fear that makes healng possible.
I met recently with someone who was described by an important government official as a silent warrior, yet I've never heard him without words. We must fight silently at times to be efficient in the kill, but must first love silently to give life to the will.
Amour and no less.
I have a question before I have a dream.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YIiDlksURsk My daughters Sarah and Whitney. Whitney is trying to get Sarah to say Sarah.
Telling your body it is spring time.
Loved at first sight.
Arranging the thoughts of our heart and the heart of our thoughts to act in an orderly manner in the heat and heart of chaos.
Sweat grands.
Tying a mellow ribbon around the old oak tree.
The apple of the eye that became a lump in the throat.
From a creative standpoint, giving into giving up a dream is one of the easiest, yet most painful and frustrating acts in one's life. By giving up a dream, I don't mean putting off the important parts of life to chase a fantasy, I mean giving up that creative side that one can carry until it's possible to live out in whatever form it takes. Many never truly enter their dream because the belief is that once they enter, the dream is corrupted because of how poorly they view themselves in combination with not knowing their true selves. It takes courage, the purest form of courage, to continue to carry and or enter because one must get to the heart of one's soul to live there. Without that self-soul knowledge, you cannot possess the dream because it possesses and controls you in such a way that you have try to force it or escape it.
Forcing or escaping it creates a false sense of loneliness where one then finds multiple ways to fill the hole of the dream that lives in me. Delays (that the pain & frustration cover up) by my ways deny my soulful experience of the strength needed to enter that dream or skillfully develop myself for it to unfold by creative acts of my time. Thus I'm using my creative power to destroy, rather than create, something in me, others, or both because of the anger that develops.
Some of the greatest guilt comes from this type of anger which underlies the pain and frustration demonstrated by most who say they are hurting and frustrated. This anger prevents them from seeing their true self and living out their dream that I call unrealized potential.
Yet there seems no way out. Or is there?
To be continued (observed)..
After watching the trailer to Hunger Games in which the young male character Peter said that he wanted to show that they didn't own him after being picked to represent District 12, he said "If I am going to die, I want to still be me." As strange as it sounds, a line from the Night Before Christmas came to mind. "When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,".
In Hunger Games, it explains being trained in the art of survival rather than survival only.
I watched my father die that way- in a valiant death by disease. It has had a lasting profound effect on me to this day.
How does wonder get restored in a way that allows me to see each day in anticipation of not only Christmas(life), but even Easter(death and life) so that the sense of wonder is restored in such a way that I become more of myself to live and die the same me? Through willingness and readiness to suffer.
This week I came to recognize that hunger shows us something much deeper- that we're alive-alive as who we truly are- and to valiantly live in the art of survival where we do not fear death in such a way that it takes away the wonder of who we are.
Hunger. The hidden story underlying hunger.
A parrot in eagle's clothing. Speaks without observing in real time. Full of conflict rather than conflict resolution.
Do I figure out something in order to enjoy it, him, or her or do I enjoy it, him, or her in order to figure it out? So which is a good figure or should I say figuring? Trying to understand is the intent to be enlightened but the greater desire is to know, not understand. To seek to know brings the primary strengthening joy to lead into an action to do next that brings understanding. This leads to greater desire to know with greater joy and strength to continue to act with more patience and compassion while anticipating greater understanding to come.
I then begin to look forward to someone or thing with lessening dread and negative fear. Go figure.
As I "figure" out an example of this, what comes to mind is a common problem I see happening so often in conversations. Someone brings up a problem and begins to share their story. Hearing the story sparks an interest to see the problem clearly understood with a solution. However, this is at the expense of hearing the hidden story underlying the story being told, not just the problem that is only now seen.
Much of the response given is rarely applicable to the hidden story because the desire to know someone is often second in importance to the desire to understand someone (with the problem being presented as part of the story). Since many demand that they be understood, we are used to seeing something as a problem to be understood rather than a person with a deeper story to be known. The deeper knowing is where the understanding begins because of the emotional ties required that give the sense of being esteemed, valued, respected, and loved.
A great figure of speech for this is to listen more and speak less, but with more meaning to the person in the hidden story. The tendency is to disrespect, project, dissect, & neglect rather than to hear more after saying tell me more.
